The start of SBS Journey

Phewww…
Today will be a day that I wouldn’t forget!
1st day of SBS yet it was really interestingly challenging. It was so hard to stay focus for some reason. It was not easy, just as I expected. I found it so hard. The first three weeks will be really tough as it starts at 8am til 8.30pm. Well, there'll be a break in between but normally we are given an assignment that we should finish before the evening session starts. The first assignment started today. It was something i really wasn't a fan of. It is called color-coding. We are to do some observations of the Book. It was really difficult. I tried so hard yet i didn't know why my brain and my body wasn't responding at all. Partly because i'm a person that needs to see and get involved in the process of how things are done. I can't just be given instruction. I will have it in my mind yet i just can't seem to put a hand on it. So i broke down and cried. I went out of the room, grabbed my guitar and searched for a place to play. I ended up on the rooftop, my favorite place. It was really sunny hot when i was up there. I just couldn't be bothered by the heat. I just wanted to see Dad! I started playing the guitar, pouring my heart out to Dad. I was so stressed out as i couldn't seem to keep up with the school, and i was even frustrated as it was only the 1st day and i thought of quitting. As i was crying out, i heard Dad said: "Am i not BIG enough for this?" I cried and continued to worship. I was reminded that I am here and chose to be here just because He told me to. I never wanted to be here. I just wanted to know Him more. After an hour crying in the sun, i went back to the room, not knowing how i would do, yet i just trust.
My friend came and walked through with me the method of the study. Somehow it really helped. After that i found myself engaging more with a little bit of excitement in there. I really thank Dad for the grace and strength..
I am just gonna depend on Him and continue to rest on His faithfulness.
As the school leader said today, in the midst of our business doing the assigments, don't miss out time to just be with Dad and talk to Him. It'll keep you going... It has kept me going today.. Looking forward for tomorrow.. One day at a time... Thank You, Dad.. You are BIG enough..
PS: Thank you so much for praying with and for me. I want to let you know that my daily need has been covered as someone offered to provide for it. Thank You, Dad.. Please continue to pray with me. I would be thankful if you keep checking the "Pray 4 me" Section.