This year's Christmas is the most quiet Christmas I had for the past 4-5 years.
I was home all by myself. Everyone else went out. I knew I was going to be alone but it still wasn't a nice feeling being alone. I went in the kitchen making noodles and in my mind I said: "here I am home alone again."
And to my surprise, a pop song I haven't heard nor sung for a long time suddenly played in my mind, saying, "I love you more than anything even though no one knows about it"
And I heard a voice in my head: "who said you're all alone?"
I was reminded that I'm not all alone..
Thank you, Dad
Then I went into the livingroom, sat down, turned on the TV, watching Home Alone. Hahaha.. Home alone watching home alone! And it was dubbed! Sucks!
After I finished my noodles, I turned it off and picked up my guitar. I started singing a song to Dad, "I love you, Lord, I just wanna say I love you as simple as it sounds" in response to what He told me earlier in the kitchen.
I really enjoyed the moment. As soon as I began to feel His presence, I started hearing birds chirping outside. It was so loud that it caught my attention. I stopped.
It was so unusual coz I've never heard any birds chirping outside the house before.
"I told you you're not alone" - the voice in my heart said.
I knew straight away who was speaking. I recognize my Dad's voice.
Wow, thank you, Dad, for sending the birds to sing with me. It was so beautiful.
I continued singing and in the end, I came up with a new song on my lips.
I was reminded of a theme Dad once told me when I wanted to write a song to Him. It was about: His love is better than life; a theme in Psalms 63.
In the end, I managed to write a song within half an hour. It was a song that is so uplifting and encouraging for me as I'm currently going through a rather difficult time of my life.
He's been teaching me to respond in the right way otherwise I'd be consumed by my own emotion.
Allow me to share the lyrics:
Jesus, your love has made me see
there's none compares to Your loving ways
Your light has come, it saves me from myself
And I declare:
Your love sets me free
Your love makes me whole
Chorus:
Your steadfast love is better than life
My lips shall praise You
My soul will be satisfied
I will bless You as long as I live
Bridge:
There's none compares
To your saving grace
Your kingdom rejoice
Thank You for letting me be home alone so I can be alone with You, Dad.
Thank you for the birds that sang with me for hours and hours.
Psalms 63:
3 Because your steadfast love is better than life, my lips will praise you.
4 So I will bless you as long as I live; in your name I will lift up my hands.
